Tuesday, July 14, 2009

The Girl Who Can't Feel Anything

I kinda like this story which I got from our newsletter here at work. Kinda relate to the story in some sort of way...The story after the jump

There was a girl who never feels anything, hate, anger,
loneliness, fear, happiness, worries, and sadness. A
girl named Samantha, she has a long black straight
shiny hair, she has a beautiful curved face, has a dark
brown eyes, and fair skin.
One day, a boy named Leeon fell in love with her, he is
a handsome guy, and he has a dark brown hair, black
eyes and fair skin. The boy tried to confess his
feelings for the girl, but the girl replied,
“But...I can’t feel...I don’t know how to feel what
others feel”
The boy did not care and he said to the girl that he’ll
teach her how to feel
The girl said, “It’s hopeless, how will you do it? All
the doctors that I have consulted told me that I’m
normal, that there is nothing wrong with me, but there
is...”

The boy was a bit hurt, he knew it was hopeless but he
did not give up that easily, he gives it a chance and
he planned to do his best. The girl get curios about
feelings and that night, she prayed solemnly to GOD,
and wish to the stars that someday she want to wake up
with feelings in her heart.

Everyday, the boy makes surprises for the girl and do
sweet things for her. Days pass by, the boy keep on
doing special things for the girl but still, the girl
cannot feel anything.
One day, the two are walking on the seashore...The girl
started to ask the boy, “What is love? How do you feel
it?”
The boy answered her, “Uhmm...I don’t know much about
it, because every people has different outlooks in
love...But for me, Love is the most powerful thing,
it’s the most powerful feeling of all, it can’t be
broken easily by time and distance, and it has a
promise”
Girl: “wow...it seemed to be so deep, but I still don’t
know how it feels...”
Boy: “Its okay...someday you will...”, Leeon replied
sadly
Girl: “When I was still little, my mother used to tell
me that tears hurt your heart and your eyes, and she
used to forbid me not to love, because she said it’ll
kill all of me...will I die if I love someone?”
Boy: “Its true that tears hurt your heart and your
eyes, but love? It will not kill you, if love is not
destined to be, it really hurts a lot, love will only
kill your heart...”
Girl: “That’s why I don’t want to love...”
Leeon was hurt by Samantha’s point of view in love, but
he ignored it.
Every time they talk about feelings, Samantha is
getting more curious of it...
Three years passed, the boy gets impatient, he gets
tired of waiting for the girl and he’s starting to lose
hope...One day, when Leeon and Samantha were together,
the boy started to ask her questions,
Boy: “do you love me???”
Samantha was surprised of Leeon’s question and answered
back,
Girl: “...No...”
Boy: “Do your heart beats fast when I’m with you?!”
Girl: “No…”
Boy: “Do you find me when I’m not with you??”
Girl: “...No...”
The boy started to drop a tear from his left cheek and
said, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry for being impatient, and
I’m sorry for hurrying you”
The boy started to walk out, but the girl called him,
“Leeon!...”
Leeon turned back with teary eyes, then the girl added,
“I’m sorry too Leeon...”, the boy was surprised to hear
her say that word, thinking that she’s sorry for him
and asked her, “Do you mean it? Do you really feel that
you’re sorry?”
Samantha answered him back, “My mother said that when
I made someone sad, I must say sorry...”
Then Leeon whispered, “Then, I was wrong...”, he
turned away and started to walk, Samantha feel
something falling from her face and when she touched it
wet, she thought it was a tear from her eye, she called
the boy, “Leeon! I just drop a tear from my eye! I’m
crying! I’m crying!”
Leeon turned back, and suddenly the rain slowly fell on
them.
Boy: “Samantha, it was just the drop of the rain”
Girl: “...But what’s the difference??”
Boy: “There is a big difference!”
Girl: “I just thought…”, Leeon interrupt her, “Let’s
go home...”
The two of them went home wet, after Leeon drop
Samantha at their house, Samantha ran up to her room,
opened her window and watched Leeon disappeared in the
rain. She did not change her clothes and she wears her
wet clothes all night she said to her self, “What can I
do? I’m losing someone I don’t want to lose”, then she
had fall into a deep sleep...
The next morning, Samantha caught a fever, at that
day, Leeon did not come by at her house, and she did
not hear from Leeon that day.
The next day, Samantha got a phone call at exactly
8:00 p.m. from the hospital near the municipal hall and
told her that Leeon was confined there last night,
Samantha panicked and ran to her room to change her
clothes and she forgot to ask the reason why Leeon was
confined. It was raining hard that night. She arrived
wet at the hospital, she ran to the nurse station to
ask Leeon’s room. She ran from the stairs and when she
reached his room, Leeon was not there, there was no
sign of him. Samantha quickly approached the nurse and
asked where the patient of the room is, but the nurse
didn’t know so she ran to the doctor, and when the
doctor came to see her, the doctor apologized to her
and he command the nurses to find the brain cancer
patient.
Samantha was shocked to hear about Leeon’s condition
and asked the doctor about it, the doctor said he was
in a critical condition and sooner or later, he could
die...
Samantha ran outside and searched for Leeon, she saw
Leeon standing beside a tree at the back of the
hospital, he was very wet because of the rain, Samantha
called him, Leeon turned and smiled when he saw
her...Samantha ran to Leeon and hugged him, Leeon
started to say something...
Boy: “Its so nice to see you, I missed you so much!”,

Leeon hugged her tighter and he let go, he stared at
Samantha with his pale and sad face, but still, his
being handsome does not fades...Leeon touched her wet
face and said, “Look Samantha, you’re crying”, Samantha
answered him back, “But...Its just the rain”, Leeon
smiled at her...
Girl: “Why didn’t you tell me earlier??”, Samantha
asked.
Boy: “Because I found it out late, its no use, you
won’t feel sorry
for me anyway, you will not be sad to hear it, you will
not cry for me.”
Samantha felt like something pricked her chest and
said, “Let’s go inside Leeon...It’s raining hard out
here”, Samantha took a few steps but Leeon grabbed her
hands and he pleaded, “Please, don’t go”, Samantha
turned to him, “Leeon you’re sick! Now lets go
inside...”, Samantha shouted.
She started to walk away when she heard like something
fell hard, then she turned back to see Leeon lying on
the ground, she hurried back to him, put Leeon’s head
on her lap and tried to wake him up, Leeon slowly
opened his eyes and tried hard to smile at her,
Boy: “I can feel I can’t stay with you after this very
moment...”, Samantha interrupted him,
Girl: “Please don’t say that! I told you to go
inside, you’ll get sick out here, and the rain is
falling hard!”
Boy: “But..I like the rain, because of the rain, now I
can see you cry for real, you’re right, there’s no
difference between them...”
Girl: “Can’t you wait for a bit Leeon?! Can’t you stay
and wait until I feel something?! Anything?!”
Boy: “You know I can’t stay long Samantha...but I want
you to know that...even though...at my very last
moment...you haven’t felt anything...I’m still happy
and I feel lucky to be with you even for a short
time...I’ll pray for you...I’ll watch over you...”
Girl: “Please stop saying that Leeon! You’re not going
to leave me!”
Boy: “...Even though I’m not the first one to feel
your love and your care, even though I cannot make it
‘til that day came...I’ll still wait”
Samantha felt something she never felt before...
Girl: “Please don’t say those words! Please don’t
leave me!”
The rain was starting to disappear; Leeon is closing
his eyes because he could feel his head aching.
Boy: “I love you Samantha, I’ll always do...until
forever”
Leeon stopped for awhile and was surprised to see a
tear dropping from Samantha’s eyes, she started to cry.
Leeon felt so much pain in his head, he started
shouting and screaming and crying, the nurses saw them
and hurried to Leeon to bring him back to the hospital,
Samantha hurried with him to his room and said to him,
“Please don’t die! Please don’t leave! please stay!”,
the doctor bring Samantha out of Leeon’s room, she
could hear his cry and was shouting her name, Samantha
looked at him from the window of his room and saw him
trying to break free from the doctor and the nurse.
Samantha felt the heaviness on her chest because of
Leeon’s shout like she was on his position, she cried
even harder as Leeon suffer from pain...

At that night, Leeon died...

After a week, Samantha visited Leeon’s grave it’s been
a week before she decided to go to the cemetery.
LOVING MEMORY OF
Leeon Madrigal
Born: Feb. 14, 1987
Died: Nov. 5, 2007
She saw a letter that was written by Leeon for her, she
was still reading the opening but she can’t help her
self not to cry...
Dear Samantha,

It wasn’t that easy for me to live you with so much
pain, when you were holding me, and asking me not to
leave you, I saw you cry…No…
It’s not the rain, but real tears falling from your
eyes.
It was worth it for me to wait so long…thank you…thank
you very much for the times that we’re together…and for
the last moment of my life, you let me feel that I’m
important to you…I want you to know that I love you so
much, even though you cannot love me back, even though
you can’t love me the way I do…please don’t waste your
tears on me…I know you’ll meet someone who will love
you the way I did…I want you to take care of
yourself…and I want you to be brave for every
heartaches you get…
Goodbye Samantha… Love,

Leeon

She realized all her mistakes and kept on crying...
“You’re right Leeon, all along I had loved you, but it
was hidden for so long, until I lose you...that’s when
I realized that you were very important to me...you did
not teach me anything, you just let me feel it...you
never forced me anything, that’s why I slowly
learned...I feel sorry for my self to lose someone like
you...and for that, I will never forget you...I had
regretted so many things...I never said I love you, I
never showed you I care. I guess I was afraid to take
chances, afraid to love and get hurt, I did not give
you and myself a chance...I’m sorry, and I love you…”

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