Tuesday, July 14, 2009 The Girl Who Can't Feel Anything I kinda like this story which I got from our newsletter here at work. Kinda relate to the story in some sort of way...The story after the jumpThere was a girl who never feels anything, hate, anger, loneliness, fear, happiness, worries, and sadness. A girl named Samantha, she has a long black straight shiny hair, she has a beautiful curved face, has a dark brown eyes, and fair skin. One day, a boy named Leeon fell in love with her, he is a handsome guy, and he has a dark brown hair, black eyes and fair skin. The boy tried to confess his feelings for the girl, but the girl replied, “But...I can’t feel...I don’t know how to feel what others feel” The boy did not care and he said to the girl that he’ll teach her how to feel The girl said, “It’s hopeless, how will you do it? All the doctors that I have consulted told me that I’m normal, that there is nothing wrong with me, but there is...” The boy was a bit hurt, he knew it was hopeless but he did not give up that easily, he gives it a chance and he planned to do his best. The girl get curios about feelings and that night, she prayed solemnly to GOD, and wish to the stars that someday she want to wake up with feelings in her heart. Everyday, the boy makes surprises for the girl and do sweet things for her. Days pass by, the boy keep on doing special things for the girl but still, the girl cannot feel anything. One day, the two are walking on the seashore...The girl started to ask the boy, “What is love? How do you feel it?” The boy answered her, “Uhmm...I don’t know much about it, because every people has different outlooks in love...But for me, Love is the most powerful thing, it’s the most powerful feeling of all, it can’t be broken easily by time and distance, and it has a promise” Girl: “wow...it seemed to be so deep, but I still don’t know how it feels...” Boy: “Its okay...someday you will...”, Leeon replied sadly Girl: “When I was still little, my mother used to tell me that tears hurt your heart and your eyes, and she used to forbid me not to love, because she said it’ll kill all of me...will I die if I love someone?” Boy: “Its true that tears hurt your heart and your eyes, but love? It will not kill you, if love is not destined to be, it really hurts a lot, love will only kill your heart...” Girl: “That’s why I don’t want to love...” Leeon was hurt by Samantha’s point of view in love, but he ignored it. Every time they talk about feelings, Samantha is getting more curious of it... Three years passed, the boy gets impatient, he gets tired of waiting for the girl and he’s starting to lose hope...One day, when Leeon and Samantha were together, the boy started to ask her questions, Boy: “do you love me???” Samantha was surprised of Leeon’s question and answered back, Girl: “...No...” Boy: “Do your heart beats fast when I’m with you?!” Girl: “No…” Boy: “Do you find me when I’m not with you??” Girl: “...No...” The boy started to drop a tear from his left cheek and said, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry for being impatient, and I’m sorry for hurrying you” The boy started to walk out, but the girl called him, “Leeon!...” Leeon turned back with teary eyes, then the girl added, “I’m sorry too Leeon...”, the boy was surprised to hear her say that word, thinking that she’s sorry for him and asked her, “Do you mean it? Do you really feel that you’re sorry?” Samantha answered him back, “My mother said that when I made someone sad, I must say sorry...” Then Leeon whispered, “Then, I was wrong...”, he turned away and started to walk, Samantha feel something falling from her face and when she touched it wet, she thought it was a tear from her eye, she called the boy, “Leeon! I just drop a tear from my eye! I’m crying! I’m crying!” Leeon turned back, and suddenly the rain slowly fell on them. Boy: “Samantha, it was just the drop of the rain” Girl: “...But what’s the difference??” Boy: “There is a big difference!” Girl: “I just thought…”, Leeon interrupt her, “Let’s go home...” The two of them went home wet, after Leeon drop Samantha at their house, Samantha ran up to her room, opened her window and watched Leeon disappeared in the rain. She did not change her clothes and she wears her wet clothes all night she said to her self, “What can I do? I’m losing someone I don’t want to lose”, then she had fall into a deep sleep... The next morning, Samantha caught a fever, at that day, Leeon did not come by at her house, and she did not hear from Leeon that day. The next day, Samantha got a phone call at exactly 8:00 p.m. from the hospital near the municipal hall and told her that Leeon was confined there last night, Samantha panicked and ran to her room to change her clothes and she forgot to ask the reason why Leeon was confined. It was raining hard that night. She arrived wet at the hospital, she ran to the nurse station to ask Leeon’s room. She ran from the stairs and when she reached his room, Leeon was not there, there was no sign of him. Samantha quickly approached the nurse and asked where the patient of the room is, but the nurse didn’t know so she ran to the doctor, and when the doctor came to see her, the doctor apologized to her and he command the nurses to find the brain cancer patient. Samantha was shocked to hear about Leeon’s condition and asked the doctor about it, the doctor said he was in a critical condition and sooner or later, he could die... Samantha ran outside and searched for Leeon, she saw Leeon standing beside a tree at the back of the hospital, he was very wet because of the rain, Samantha called him, Leeon turned and smiled when he saw her...Samantha ran to Leeon and hugged him, Leeon started to say something... Boy: “Its so nice to see you, I missed you so much!”, Leeon hugged her tighter and he let go, he stared at Samantha with his pale and sad face, but still, his being handsome does not fades...Leeon touched her wet face and said, “Look Samantha, you’re crying”, Samantha answered him back, “But...Its just the rain”, Leeon smiled at her... Girl: “Why didn’t you tell me earlier??”, Samantha asked. Boy: “Because I found it out late, its no use, you won’t feel sorry for me anyway, you will not be sad to hear it, you will not cry for me.” Samantha felt like something pricked her chest and said, “Let’s go inside Leeon...It’s raining hard out here”, Samantha took a few steps but Leeon grabbed her hands and he pleaded, “Please, don’t go”, Samantha turned to him, “Leeon you’re sick! Now lets go inside...”, Samantha shouted. She started to walk away when she heard like something fell hard, then she turned back to see Leeon lying on the ground, she hurried back to him, put Leeon’s head on her lap and tried to wake him up, Leeon slowly opened his eyes and tried hard to smile at her, Boy: “I can feel I can’t stay with you after this very moment...”, Samantha interrupted him, Girl: “Please don’t say that! I told you to go inside, you’ll get sick out here, and the rain is falling hard!” Boy: “But..I like the rain, because of the rain, now I can see you cry for real, you’re right, there’s no difference between them...” Girl: “Can’t you wait for a bit Leeon?! Can’t you stay and wait until I feel something?! Anything?!” Boy: “You know I can’t stay long Samantha...but I want you to know that...even though...at my very last moment...you haven’t felt anything...I’m still happy and I feel lucky to be with you even for a short time...I’ll pray for you...I’ll watch over you...” Girl: “Please stop saying that Leeon! You’re not going to leave me!” Boy: “...Even though I’m not the first one to feel your love and your care, even though I cannot make it ‘til that day came...I’ll still wait” Samantha felt something she never felt before... Girl: “Please don’t say those words! Please don’t leave me!” The rain was starting to disappear; Leeon is closing his eyes because he could feel his head aching. Boy: “I love you Samantha, I’ll always do...until forever” Leeon stopped for awhile and was surprised to see a tear dropping from Samantha’s eyes, she started to cry. Leeon felt so much pain in his head, he started shouting and screaming and crying, the nurses saw them and hurried to Leeon to bring him back to the hospital, Samantha hurried with him to his room and said to him, “Please don’t die! Please don’t leave! please stay!”, the doctor bring Samantha out of Leeon’s room, she could hear his cry and was shouting her name, Samantha looked at him from the window of his room and saw him trying to break free from the doctor and the nurse. Samantha felt the heaviness on her chest because of Leeon’s shout like she was on his position, she cried even harder as Leeon suffer from pain... At that night, Leeon died... After a week, Samantha visited Leeon’s grave it’s been a week before she decided to go to the cemetery. LOVING MEMORY OF Leeon Madrigal Born: Feb. 14, 1987 Died: Nov. 5, 2007 She saw a letter that was written by Leeon for her, she was still reading the opening but she can’t help her self not to cry... Dear Samantha, It wasn’t that easy for me to live you with so much pain, when you were holding me, and asking me not to leave you, I saw you cry…No… It’s not the rain, but real tears falling from your eyes. It was worth it for me to wait so long…thank you…thank you very much for the times that we’re together…and for the last moment of my life, you let me feel that I’m important to you…I want you to know that I love you so much, even though you cannot love me back, even though you can’t love me the way I do…please don’t waste your tears on me…I know you’ll meet someone who will love you the way I did…I want you to take care of yourself…and I want you to be brave for every heartaches you get… Goodbye Samantha… Love, Leeon She realized all her mistakes and kept on crying... “You’re right Leeon, all along I had loved you, but it was hidden for so long, until I lose you...that’s when I realized that you were very important to me...you did not teach me anything, you just let me feel it...you never forced me anything, that’s why I slowly learned...I feel sorry for my self to lose someone like you...and for that, I will never forget you...I had regretted so many things...I never said I love you, I never showed you I care. I guess I was afraid to take chances, afraid to love and get hurt, I did not give you and myself a chance...I’m sorry, and I love you…”
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