Wednesday, June 04, 2008  They say every beginning has its ending. Every start has an end. After two years, Frozen Glade, a private Ragnarok Online server will be completely wipe out to give way to a fresh new server. Since i joined the server last March 2008, Frozen Glade became second life to me, my friends were also there and we share the same goal, become a great player. We sticked together through thick and thin. I I C Q C, Bubble Hearts and finally Unforgiven Reborn were the guilds that made us closer to each other. Too bad, LXG, an all Filipino guild, destroyed the integrity of Frozen Glade by duplicating items. A fellow Filipino, rob me of my happiness. I wanted to blame them, but I just let it go. I hope they die a tragic death anyway. The wipe out is scheduled this June 8, 2008 and I decided to take a chance again, play once more just for fun. Final screenshots Labels: emo Read Full Entry
Posted by Siopao Master @ 8:46 PM Tuesday, May 20, 2008  It was almost a year since it happened. We parted ways without saying anything to each other. She completely erased me from her life. Am I fighting for a war which defeat is inevitable? Does love really conquers all or it is just an illusion? Maybe I should forget her, maybe I should not wait for her to text me even a single "Hi". It is really painful to know that the person who you cherished the most, doesn't even give a damn to your existence...Damn...I haven't even told her how much I love her.... Labels: emo Read Full Entry
Posted by Siopao Master @ 11:16 PM Monday, April 07, 2008 "I don’t wanna be like your brotherI don’t wanna be your best friend I only wanna be your lover When will this end ? If I told you that I wanna be in your life Then you could be the woman in mine" - Why by 98 degrees It's been like a trend, When I fall in love, that girl either becomes my best friend or my worst enemy. The first hated me for something I did not do. The second, erased my existence in her world, and the last, became my best friend, but left me for good. They say don't look for love, for it will find you, but love seems can't find the way in me. But then again, who will love a guy like me? (self pity alert!). Come on, I have a psoriasis, a thinning hairline and a fat body...which basically made me fail on the physical aspect. Emotionally, I'm too kind, too kind to be easily take advantage on. Socially, I'm not good towards the opposite sex and the geek factor will always be there. Maybe these are the reasons I'm still single? Labels: emo Read Full Entry
Posted by Siopao Master @ 2:53 PM Monday, March 31, 2008 It's been like eternity since she erased me in her world. But why am I still in love with her? Why do I still think about her at night, remember her on times of loneliness. Why am I still hoping for her love when she already killed me in her heart?Labels: emo Read Full Entry
Posted by Siopao Master @ 7:45 PM Friday, February 01, 2008  Happy Slip will have a meet and greet @ Mag:net Café, Bonifacio High Street and only the first 100 registrants can go and meet this wonderful and talented girl. The final list is out and I wasn't on it (as expected). I felt really donw because I'm really looking forward on meeting her. But then again life sucks and I must accept how things came out *sigh* Labels: emo Read Full Entry
Posted by Siopao Master @ 12:46 AM Saturday, January 26, 2008 My lifelong friend is leaving the Philippines today and it is uncertain when we'll see each other again. I will really miss her..This song is dedicated to her Farewell by Raymond Lauchengco We used to be frightened and scared to try Of things we don't really understand why We laugh for a moment and start to cry We were crazy Now that the end is already here We reminisce 'bout old yells and cheers Even if our last hurrahs were never clear Chorus: Farewell to you, my friends We'll see each other again Don't cry 'cause it's not the end of ev'rything I may be miles away But here is where my heart will stay With you My friends, with you Yesterday's atreasure, today is here Tomorrow on its way, the sky is clear Thank you for the mem'ries Of all the laughter and tears And not to mention our doubts and our fears The hypertension we gave to our peers It's really funny to look back After all of these years Farewell to you, my friends We'll see each other again Don't cry 'cause it's not the end of ev'rything I may be miles away But here is where my heart will stay With you My friends, with you Chorus 2: Farewell to you, my friends We'll see each other again Don't worry 'cause it's not the end of ev'rything I may be oceans away But here is where my heart will stay With you My friends, with you With you, my friends With only you Labels: emo Read Full Entry
Posted by Siopao Master @ 11:18 AM Friday, December 28, 2007 Christmas is the most celebrated holiday around the world. When I was young, the start of December means the start of the month long celebration of Christmas. But as I grew older, the holiday spirit faded along with my childhood.This Christmas, I didn't attended the nine mornings mass (simbang gabi) which I usually complete every year. I didn't put a Christmas countdown on my website like any other year. Heck I didn't posted on Christmas Day. I dunno, maybe the fun of Christmas for me faded away and as I grow old, Christmas is just another ordinary holiday. Labels: emo Read Full Entry
Posted by Siopao Master @ 1:26 PM Saturday, July 28, 2007 Nothing Left To Say But Goodbye "Friendship is not how long you've been together. It isn't how much you've given or recieved; nor how many times you've helped each other, but it's how you value one another."I sense that my relationship with my best friend is slowly fading. Our distance is slowly increasing and the conversations whispering away. I do hope the quote at the beginning of this entry holds true. For my relationship with her is passing through. I can feel now our differences. She never texted me ever again. She no longer sees that I'm ok or what I'm doing right now. Maybe, just maybe she got tired of what had happened between us. Once again, I'm to blame, for I cared too much for her, for I cherished her so much, without realizing the consequences it will bring. I don't want to ruin her life anymore, I don't want to be the reason why she and her beloved fight. Leaving her distance myself are the only option at my disposal, and I must act now or be the beacon of grief in her life which can never be changed forever. Goodbye my beloved best friend. Thank you for the love and the understanding you have given me. May our friendship hold true till the very end. I will be your best friend always and forever. Labels: emo Read Full Entry
Posted by Siopao Master @ 11:57 PM Sunday, July 08, 2007 I love you but I've chosen darkness There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. Afraid, confused, without a road map. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. But once in a while, people push on to something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone, and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in, or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when you're tested that you truly discover who you are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be. The person you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith and belief. And beyond heartache and fear of what lies ahead.I am standing in the middle of the road, there are two paths ahaed of me, the one is to let go of the woman you love and find someone else, the other one is to hold on. I am still in love with her, no matter what I say, my heart doesn't fee lthe same way. No matter how I forget, the memories keep hunting me. But the thing is, I like someone else, but I still love that one girl, my sassy girl. If only there is closure between the two of us, maybe just maybe my heart will be set free. Labels: emo Read Full Entry
Posted by Siopao Master @ 12:41 PM Thursday, June 28, 2007 This week was the saddest week of my life, although it concluded the question on my mind of what could be the outcome, will the good prevail or will the evil triumph?Last Monday, Proposal Daisakusen aired its final episode. As I watched the final episode, I really really felt the pain and frustration of the protagonist Iwase Ken as his futile attempt to win back his love ended in vain.It's true that a good story can change your life or it may just touch it. Proposal Daisakusen just did that, it made me realize what I have done wrong to the woman I love and I'm facing the consequences of my actions. I failed, miserably and there's no way I can correct it again. How I wish a fairy will appear to me now so that I can change the past, but too bad, there's nothing I can do know, she wouldn't want me even as a friend. Life sucks, live with it. BTW, Death Note also aired its last episode last night. It really showed good always prevail. I do hope it will happen too in real life, the evil (back stabbers and "plastic" people) will perish and peace will be restored in my life. Labels: daily-life, emo Read Full Entry
Posted by Siopao Master @ 1:53 AM Monday, June 11, 2007 "No love can hurt as much as the love that can never be. And, no thoughts can hurt as much as the thoughts of a love that could have been."I cannot believe it ended this way. I didn't imagine we will separate our paths on this manner. I think this is the best for the both of us. Not lovers, not even friends. I stood there in front of her house, trying to comprehend what just happened. All I wanted is to give to her late birthday gift and tell her how I really feel. But instead, she told me the truth. The one thing she wanted to tell me these past few weeks, She wanted me to forget her and move on. For she already forgotten me and removed me from her life. I practically did not exist anymore in her life. I wanted to cry but I can't. I can't describe the pain I felt when she said those words. As I walked away, tears keep falling down and the pain penetrated deep down my soul. Thats it. It's all over, I can't even tell her how I feel. I guess it's too late for that. I lost my love and I lost my friend all at once and there's nothing more I can do.. Labels: emo Read Full Entry
Posted by Siopao Master @ 5:06 PM Tuesday, June 05, 2007 With Tired Eyes, Tired Minds, Tired Souls, We Slept Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty? This hatred? How did it find us? Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us? That we now send our children into the world like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return, but knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows, swallowed all by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?I wasn't prepared of what happened yesterday, maybe, it's too sudden, too fast for me to comprehend. They have won. The people who hated me won again, this time, they didn't just took my future but my best friend as well. I lost also the person I treated as a mom and also I lost my one true love all in one package. What have I done to deserve this? Why are these things happening? Now all that is left for me are memories, and it only makes the pain stronger.. Labels: emo Read Full Entry
Posted by Siopao Master @ 10:27 AM Sunday, June 03, 2007 The Three Princesses and the Squire Once upon a time there were three princesses ruling the AMA kingdom. They were Althea, Bellatrix and Ixchel.A squire named Valerius secretly adored these three beautiful ladies and one day decided to tell them how he feel.The story revolved around Valerius falling in love with Althea, despite their differences, Valerius and Althea became close, during the swimming in Cavite, Valerius realized that he was in love with Althea. Too bad for Valerius, Althea didn't feel the same way, series of fights and misunderstandings followed and on December 22, 2006, Valerius finally called it quits and accepted the fact that He and Althea were only just friends. Valerius calls Althea "My Sassy Girl" based on the Korean movie. Every time the song "Don't Cha" by the Pussy Cat Dolls and "Crazy For You" by Sponge Cola were being played, Valerius remembers the good times the both of them spent together. During the dark times of Valerius, there was a kind princess by the name Bellatrix who comforted him and told him the positive side of things. Valerius and Bellatrix became the best of friends, Valerius officially call Bellatrix "Best Friend" and sometimes Bellatrix calls Valerius "Best Friend" as well, but destiny was cruel to Valerius as the boyfriend of Bellatrix suspected that Valerius' is in love with Bellatrix. Valerius coined the term "Bessy" to hide the word "Best Friend" for Bellatrix' boyfriend is the one and only "best friend" in her life. If it isn't enough, Valerius was deleted form Bellatrix' Friendster friends list and currently is banned from texting, emailing, calling, instant messaging and even talking to his "Best Friend". The squire cannot do anything for the knight is the rightful one for the princess. Thus all the squire had left was the memories of having a wonderful friendship which is now impossible to achieve. Every time the song "Tell me where it hurts" by MYMP and "I Turn to You" by Christina Aguilera were played, All the squire can do is remember the past for he cannot do anything in the present. Last but not the least, Ixchel, the princess that gave the squire false hope. Deception was the main reason the squire erased the princess in his memory, for the princess secretly has a knight during the time she gave the squire hope. The squire cannot endure the treachery abd decided to forget the princess. Three different women, One man, all three became a part of his life, but destiny took everything away and left him just the memories. He cannot do anything for he's just a squire.If only the squire became a knight, just maybe, one of the three will become his own princess and they will live happily ever after. Labels: emo Read Full Entry
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